Feeling Pregnant

Today, I'm actually feeling quite pregnant. According to my last ultra sound, my due date has been moved back to October 25th from October 4th. Which is very disappointing on many ends, 1) what pregnant woman ever wants her due date pushed back?? 2) Trav's wedding is October 23rd...
Luckily, I have a fantastic doctor who told me she would induce me October 18th (Monday before wedding) if I have gone on my own by then. I am a lot happier and I think everyone else will be a lot happier with the baby actually being OUT of me at the wedding instead of turning me in to a walking side of a building.
I'm still feeling super duper prego today and I don't know why? My office mate Meagan actually told me, "not to be rude, but you're really showing today". I made fun of her for saying she was being rude. But for whatever reason, Baby Zirnsak #2 is getting big today! :)

We Miss You Erie

Matthew and I had our Alumni Weekend (which was a super fun time! always good to see everyone!) in Erie, PA and we have come to discover that we actually somewhat miss Erie. Though it doesn't always have the nicest weather or the most friendly people, it is a "small city with a big city feel" as Matthew would put it. Not that I think we're going to be moving anywhere soon, it's hard not to play with the thoughts and ideas of moving somewhere "new" and developing almost a whole new life.
Butler has been very good to us, and it's where all of our family and friends are, but I do think if you have the desire to move somewhere different even for a period of time, you should do it. I really don't ever want to come to a point in my life and say "well...what if" or "why didn't we...?".
I also think we're both getting a little stir crazy because we're literally BURSTING out of our house now. And with baby Zirnsak #2 on their way, I think our minds are going, where the heck is everyone going to fit?!
So, for now, hello Butler county and all you have to offer! :)

My One Year Old

My little Jackson is such a big kid. Well, he's only one and a few weeks, but to me he seems like such a big kid already. He has successfully learned how to count to three! Sometimes it takes a little coxing because I think he enjoys watching mommmy and daddy get excited about him knowing what we're doing! But just yesterday, we were watching Elmo's World and Elmo was counting something, what I don't remember, but Jackson started counting along with him! Doing his cute little one, two (which is his favorite to say), and finally three that sounds more like tree. It was the cutest thing I have ever heard and experienced. I'm not even sure he knew what he was "counting" but he just knew what Elmo was saying and wanted to follow along! I wish I would've had my video camera to capture his sweet little voice. And we can say Elmo, but it seems Elmo means a lot of things, like Elmo is also used for Mickey Mouse and for any other character on the TV. I love it.
Jackson can also tell you what a cow says and what a dog may say if you asked it to. Obvious ones like Mamma, Dadda, but we're also trying Mailey when we walk in the basement door, but I think the best part is to just hear him try to say things. I always tell him, "look at mommy" and over pronounce the word so he can see how to move his mouth. He tries to do it as best as he can- it's pretty funny to watch.
So, on a side note, being a mom is the coolest thing I've ever done.

Hello Warm Weather and Stupid Sunglasses

So, the warm weather is coming. And we are all siked up about it, getting our flip flops out, bustin out the short shorts, and ripping the sleaves off our T's. But here's one thing that just drives me super crazy, why do people think it's cool, funny, hip, attractive to wear incrediably ginormous sunglasses that take up their entire face? Honestly, sunglasses have the purpose of keeping the sun out your EYES, not off of your cheek bones of forhead. I like a pair of sunglasses that are still stylish for today, but that do not look like I went back to 1986 and borrowed Aunt Bev's old frames.
So, unless your Elton John and can TOTALLY pull off a sweet pair of shades that are for other purposes that keeping the sun from burning your retnas, don't be stupid.

2010

My son Jackson celebrated his 1st birthday on Saturday. His actual birthdate is the 8th, but we had the party on the 10th so that a lot of family and friends could join in the celebration. It was a really awesome, fun, emotional, and crazy day. I can't believe my baby is one year old, it honestly feels like a week ago that we were bringing him home from the hospital. As you have heard since you were younger and as you will hear for the rest of your life, "time flies". And since 2010 hasn't been the most pleasing to me and my family thus far, we need to be thankful for each and every day that we are blessed with. Because unfortunatly, today could be your last day here to enjoy it.
Obivousily I have been thinking a lot about heaven and what my dad's doing up there right now, but I'm having a hard time picturing a place that could give more joy than what a day with loved ones does. Don't get me wrong, my husband and I fight more than we'd probably like to admit to, and I'm not always the most easy going person when it comes to almost everything, but I still like to think we can say we had a blessed day even if it had some rough points throughout. Will we know eachother when we get to heaven? Do we need to know who eachother is or will we be satisfied with others just being present? Will the things you loved so much in your earthly life even matter in heaven? I have never really had the chance nor I guess the desire to just dwell in what my future life entails, but I can't help but get upset thinking about the fact that I may be walking around in heaven and stumbling into dad's freshly manacured garden and not even know it's his...
But right now, my married life has been everything but easy. I know relationships take work, but when you love someone so much, you wonder why the relationship part just wouldn't come so naturally. There is a reason that God made us all different, but sometimes I think life would be a lot easier and less stressful if we all were more alike :)

It's A Dark Day

Luke 23:33-34 -- When they came to the place called the Skull, there they crucified Him, along with the criminals-- one on His right, the other on His left. Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."


Tonight is going to be difficult. Good Friday service is usually one of my favorite of the year. It's taking a good hard long look at your life and asking your self that one main question, "am I fulfilling my purpose here on earth?".
With how I have been feeling these last couple weeks, I'm not sure where my thoughts will go tonight.
But... Glory to God in Heaven and peace to those on Earth.