My One Year Old

My little Jackson is such a big kid. Well, he's only one and a few weeks, but to me he seems like such a big kid already. He has successfully learned how to count to three! Sometimes it takes a little coxing because I think he enjoys watching mommmy and daddy get excited about him knowing what we're doing! But just yesterday, we were watching Elmo's World and Elmo was counting something, what I don't remember, but Jackson started counting along with him! Doing his cute little one, two (which is his favorite to say), and finally three that sounds more like tree. It was the cutest thing I have ever heard and experienced. I'm not even sure he knew what he was "counting" but he just knew what Elmo was saying and wanted to follow along! I wish I would've had my video camera to capture his sweet little voice. And we can say Elmo, but it seems Elmo means a lot of things, like Elmo is also used for Mickey Mouse and for any other character on the TV. I love it.
Jackson can also tell you what a cow says and what a dog may say if you asked it to. Obvious ones like Mamma, Dadda, but we're also trying Mailey when we walk in the basement door, but I think the best part is to just hear him try to say things. I always tell him, "look at mommy" and over pronounce the word so he can see how to move his mouth. He tries to do it as best as he can- it's pretty funny to watch.
So, on a side note, being a mom is the coolest thing I've ever done.

Hello Warm Weather and Stupid Sunglasses

So, the warm weather is coming. And we are all siked up about it, getting our flip flops out, bustin out the short shorts, and ripping the sleaves off our T's. But here's one thing that just drives me super crazy, why do people think it's cool, funny, hip, attractive to wear incrediably ginormous sunglasses that take up their entire face? Honestly, sunglasses have the purpose of keeping the sun out your EYES, not off of your cheek bones of forhead. I like a pair of sunglasses that are still stylish for today, but that do not look like I went back to 1986 and borrowed Aunt Bev's old frames.
So, unless your Elton John and can TOTALLY pull off a sweet pair of shades that are for other purposes that keeping the sun from burning your retnas, don't be stupid.

2010

My son Jackson celebrated his 1st birthday on Saturday. His actual birthdate is the 8th, but we had the party on the 10th so that a lot of family and friends could join in the celebration. It was a really awesome, fun, emotional, and crazy day. I can't believe my baby is one year old, it honestly feels like a week ago that we were bringing him home from the hospital. As you have heard since you were younger and as you will hear for the rest of your life, "time flies". And since 2010 hasn't been the most pleasing to me and my family thus far, we need to be thankful for each and every day that we are blessed with. Because unfortunatly, today could be your last day here to enjoy it.
Obivousily I have been thinking a lot about heaven and what my dad's doing up there right now, but I'm having a hard time picturing a place that could give more joy than what a day with loved ones does. Don't get me wrong, my husband and I fight more than we'd probably like to admit to, and I'm not always the most easy going person when it comes to almost everything, but I still like to think we can say we had a blessed day even if it had some rough points throughout. Will we know eachother when we get to heaven? Do we need to know who eachother is or will we be satisfied with others just being present? Will the things you loved so much in your earthly life even matter in heaven? I have never really had the chance nor I guess the desire to just dwell in what my future life entails, but I can't help but get upset thinking about the fact that I may be walking around in heaven and stumbling into dad's freshly manacured garden and not even know it's his...
But right now, my married life has been everything but easy. I know relationships take work, but when you love someone so much, you wonder why the relationship part just wouldn't come so naturally. There is a reason that God made us all different, but sometimes I think life would be a lot easier and less stressful if we all were more alike :)

It's A Dark Day

Luke 23:33-34 -- When they came to the place called the Skull, there they crucified Him, along with the criminals-- one on His right, the other on His left. Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."


Tonight is going to be difficult. Good Friday service is usually one of my favorite of the year. It's taking a good hard long look at your life and asking your self that one main question, "am I fulfilling my purpose here on earth?".
With how I have been feeling these last couple weeks, I'm not sure where my thoughts will go tonight.
But... Glory to God in Heaven and peace to those on Earth.

No Thanks March

So, I don't even know where to begin. March 13th, 2010, my father Timothy J. Reges Sr. passed away peacefully in his bed. It has been about 10 days and we still are in shock over the whole thing. I'm feeling angry and confused in God's plan for our family, I'm not sure how long it's going to take for me to have an understanding or acceptance. So, for now, praying and family is my best bet.

Where is SPRING!?

Sooo, we've been getting teased with the warm weather and sunshine. Today I think it went up to 65 degrees or something, super awesome. I feel like we need to be sitting outside in the sun instead of trapped in the house right about now. If we get any kind of weather change, I'm going to have to keep telling myself it's 60 degrees so I can get through till summer.
Jackson has discovered how to "talk" in long spans. He honestly wakes up and just starts going. I swear the other morning he was saying, "girl girl girl girl" over and over again. It's hilarious to hear him pick up new sounds and how he's working through understanding how to say them all. He's turning in to such a little boy, it's exciting and sad all at the same time! Thank goodness there's another little Zirnsak on the way!! AHHH SURPRISE ENDING TO THIS POST!! October baby here we come!! :)

Trying to get things in place!

Sometimes I feel like things are just all over the place in my life. Things are coming together, this isn't working out, or that isn't happening like I want it to. But for the last few weeks, things have just been wonderful. And not to miss the fact that I have a new baby nephew born 2/28/10- baby boy Emmett is such a wonderful addition to our family!
I have a lot hanging over my head with the whole school thing, I was able to find the 2 classes I needed being offered over the summer and through the online campus. I just have to get it done this summer to avoid getting divorced. :)
Jackson is growing up so fast. He's going to be 11 months old on the 8th. I have been trying to throw around some ideas for a first birthday, but Matthew keeps shutting me down! I think we've some what agreed on a farm theme. It'll be awesome to have all the little boys (and Layla!) dressed up in farm attire! :)
I tried to sleep at my desk today for 20 minutes, didn't work out so well because the stupid phone kept ringing...