Wow. To Not Posting In Quite Awhile!!!

Our life has changes a lot since the last time I posted! I'm going to do a quick recap and then hope that catches it up! :)
1) Jude Timothy was born October 18th at 1:08pm. His delivery was quick and beautiful! He is now almost 5 months and it thriving! He is honestly the happiest baby I've ever met. He smiles and laughs all day long. He's already starting to like to stand and bounce when held up on my lap. He's having the same little skin issue that Jackson had at this age, but we're hoping he grows out of it too!
2) Jackson loves his baby brother! There is sometimes a little jealousy, but mostly hugs and kisses! :)
3) Jackson is going to be 2 next month. I just can't believe it. He's so bright and is already starting to read some words that we have on flash cards for him. He loves his alphabet and counting. He can count to 15 all by himself! We're hoping to get him in to some kind of "pre-school" sooner than later.
4) I am in agency training! I will be a State Farm Agent in Allison Park come October 1st! This all is happening and has happened so fast!!
5) Matthew is doing very well at work and is always coming up with new projects to do!
6) We really miss dad. Today marks a full year without him. He's in our thoughts every day. Love you dad- wish you were here.

Waiting Doesn't Equal Fun...

Still no Jude!! I can't believe he isn't here yet! I guess mommy's insides must be pretty comfortable- haha. We are scheduled to be at the hospital at 5:30am on Monday, so we know he will either be here Monday sometime, or wait till Tuesday weeee hours just like his big brother :).
But nonetheless, can't wait for him to get here!! Can't wait to see who he looks like and how big he is. Such an awesome thing.
I'll try to keep up on some updates and some pics as the baby arrives.

3 CM

Any day now!! Come on Jude!!! Dialated to 3 CM as of our appointment on Wednesday. There is a lot of pressure and a lot of head moving :), but no real steady contractions yet. I'm thinking this weekend there will be a trip to the hospital, but we'll see.
I'll keep you posted!

Count Your Blessings

Not that I can put too much information about some things on my blog, well, not until I know more details myself! But some really awesome and scary things have presented themselves to Matthew and I in the last few days. Not only are we expecting a little surprise called Jude in the next few weeks, we're also expecting our life to take some dramatic steps career wise. I'm petrified of some of the time I'll have to spend away from the babies, but everyone (aunt jul in particular) tells me it's better than waiting to when they are old enough to know I'm gone or away for periods of time. Which is ultimately true- I just think it's going to be hard for me to be away for periods of time with out giving kisses or hugs or getting them...
Rachel tells me to think of the future and what opportunities we're opening up to as a family. Mom tells me she still cries when she thinks about being away from Timmy and he's 29. :)
But- life is crazy.

Keep it sane readers.

THE HOUSE IS FOR SALE!

HORRRAYY!! the house is officially for sale. A scary, but fun and exciting process! we're hoping for a quick sale (obviously like an home seller) so that we can know what to expect for our family's future. With Jude on his way, and Jackson getting so stickin big by the minute, we're anticipating a lot of new and BIG changes. As many of you know, and know us well, Matthew and I like to do all the big things, life changing big things, at once. :)
But we are still looking all over the place (always Butler County) for where we might want to live? There are so many things in the playing cards now that it's hard for us to decide on what we want/need at this point. Obviously we know Matthew has a great position at IbisTek and he will be employed with them for a few more years to come! :) And with me starting the agency process, we're hoping I get offered a site that is conducive to where we all want to be! I would love for the boys to go to the Mars School district, but we still have some time to decide on which schools they'll be attending, well, we think there's time, but Ev will be turning 3 (THREE!!) in December... just crazy.
Welllll, that's all for now. As my brother always ends his post with something catchy, as will I.
Keep it interesting families! :)

A few pics of baby Jackson.

Hi Fall- we've been waiting for you!

If you read my husbands blog, you can see why fall is so important to him :). but for me, it means a lot of things- new baby boy will be here soon! Holiday's are just around the corner and then hello 2011. I'm not sure how I feel about 2011 almost being here, I mean, not almost, but kinda really because with baby #2 coming in October, the rest of the year is going to fly by. 2010 has been good in a lot of ways but also bad in a lot of ways...
I'm excited today because I was able to get out a long sweater to wear in to work today, and I love sweater and boots weather! :) So, hello hunting and warm sweaters on cute little boys with a lot of fun fall pics to come!!

House Shopping

I really don't claim to be much of a shopper. I have no desire to spend time searching for the best deals or bargain hunting, but when it comes to things like house shopping, I get extra extra excited! We've decided we've out grown our little house on Bonniebrook. The house has been good to us, we'll most likely bring both of our babies home to this house, and we created many wonderful memories as Mr. and Mrs. Zirnsak in that house, but... like other thing, it's time to move on.
Unfortunately, my loving husband and I have a very different desire of where we'd like to move. Me, I loved to move towards Cranberry/ Mars area. I have never lived in an area that has "neighborhoods" or fun street names. I have a desire to give that kind of living a try to give the boys the chance to experience neighborhood living and also different from good ol' butler. Matthew on the other hand, wants to buy 220394029348 acres and hunt all the time. :) So, needless to say, we're having a hard time finding a place that fits both of our desires right now. BUT today, there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I was searching the home listing websites when two surprise potential houses popped up! One is Matthew's dream home, literally. It's a log home set on 3.1 acres, it's quite beautiful but not in the school district I want. The other home, IS in the school district I want and sits on 1.65 acres, but the inside is what I love the most! :)
I do believe Matthew is on the phone with the real estate agent of the log home as I'm typing- God bless his excitement and love of so many things. :)

I'll keep you posted (blogged) on the whole new life change! :)

Jackson

Jackson is active. I sometimes forget to put a lot in here about what he's doing around this time in his life, but it seems it's always changing! The kid is bright! I mean, he's my child so of course I'm going to say he's accelerated, but he does take me off guard sometimes. For example, Jackson knows what his shoes and socks are. He knows how to say each. Last night we were getting ready to leave mom and dad's house and I said, "jackson, please find your shoes so mommy can put them on." Don't you know, he walked over to where his shoes were sitting on the chair and brought them close to me. He didn't hand them to me per say, haha , but the fact that at 16 months he was able to locate his shoes and bring them to me to put on was a very big accomplishment! :)
And this morning whenever Matthew was getting him ready to go to Terry's, as he was putting his socks on, with eyes closed, Jackson wanted to be sure to let daddy know that he was putting his "socks" on. He's so funny.
His newest favorite word to say would have to be cereal. I'm not sure why he finds it so enjoyable to say, but it is sometimes just said out of no where for the fun of it! :)

Big Baby Boy

So I am currently 28 weeks pregnant. My "due date" is October 25th but will be getting induced on October 18th due to a very special wedding event (trav and ann!) that is happening on October 23rd. Jude is huggge in my belly. Or well, at least he feels huge! I don't remember Jackson feeling so big at this point in the pregnancy, I can really only remember Jackson feeling huge towards the end and the uncomfortable feeling! So, I feeling, or well hoping, that Jude comes early! That way I don't have to get induced and hang out in the hospital for my long labor history.

July 26th

Yesterday, Matthew and I celebrated our two year anniversary! But honestly, it feels like it's been about 15 years. I'm not meaning that in an ohhh there is no romance, or excitement remaining in our marriage, I mean that as in, holy crap, so much has happened in that two years that I can't believe it's only two?????????? You know, for example, one son, one on the way, one house, trying to move out of it, four jobs, starting the process for a new one, school graduations... that's just to name a few things that has happened in our short time as Mr. and Mrs. Z.
But Matthew, thank you for these wonderful two years. full of love, BABIES, tears, hugs, and memories that will last for 2X20 years.
And, me being fairly pregnant and tired as all get out, our second anniversary was spent with Jackson at home around the kitchen table eating Chinese food. well, Matthew eating Chinese food and it not tasting that great to me. :) To next year babe!

Vacation 2010

Me and my family (Matthew, Jackson, and baby Jude in my belly) traveled up to Erie for 3 days. It was a lot of fun but definatly different when vacationing with a little baby, because naps and bedtime are still very important times during the day! below are some pics from our time in Erie! Love family and little sub babies!! :)

and p.s. Jackson loves the water! note his running in all on his own!

I'm sorry, did someone say July 8th?

I feel like the summer is flying. I think that is normally the case for summer, but holy cow!! I think a lot of it has to do with me finishing up these classes and the stress of that, plus the fact that I'm pregnant and I always think in my head, "the baby will be here after summer." I'm assuming that's why everything is flying by so quickly, in anticipation of Baby Zirnsak #2. As of today, will be named Jude Timothy. :)
Matthew and I are planning a few night get away to Erie with Jackson in about a week. We really don't have the funds to get away away for the summer, but getting to take Jackson to Lake Erie for a few days to play in the sun, will be well worth it! We'll also be celebrating our two year anniversary this summer! Crazy, I sometimes forget we even had a wedding. Things just fly by so quickly when you're living a life full of so many changes. So, remember to slow down and take in the sights. There are a lot of good ones out there.

Baby Boy #2!

Due October 25th! Doing great and swimmin' around! :)

My Two Boys!

Yes, the Zirnsak's are having another boy! We're very excited to know that big brother Jackson will have his very own best friend in the house at all times! :) Not that I don't expect fist fights somewhere in their futures, I still love that they'll always have each other!

Happy Birthday Dad

Today is Dad's birthday. I really can't remember what we did last year, but I'm sure it had something to grilling out and strawberries over short cake. :) I miss him. I miss him the most when I'm outside and the sun is shining. These are some of dad's favorite things, I'll put them here to be able to read whenever we want. 1) Sunshine 2) Rain (funny, I know!) 3) Gardening in the rain 4) Freshly mowed grass 5) Cucumbers and anything else "from the garden" 6) The "no shirt in warm weather" rule 7) Moving boulders around for the thrill of it 8) Grandbabies and berries 9) Hunting like an Indian 10) Camp fires with beer 11) Any good meal 12) A hard days work 13) His truck and the fact that it could potentially climb Mount Everest if need be 14) Josie and a stick 15) Front porch and coffee 16) Being uncomfortable while watching tv in the garage 17) "yelling" at mom 18)picking on Curt 19) slicked hair 20) his cell phone 21) his camera 22) Birds at the bird feeder 23) Anything God made.

Squirmy Baby!

The little baby Zirnsak in my belly has become very active! When they say you really "feel" baby #2 more than first baby, they are right! Just one day I fel the baby alll day long swimmin around, and ever since then, I feel movements all day long. It is such a wonderful and crazy thing! We will know the sex of Baby Zirnsak #2 on June 1st!! Keep your fingers crossed for 10 fingers and toes! :)

Music Man

I have been listening to my iPod on shuffle since my boss has been out of the office. It has been freaking awesome. As much as I love music and rockin' out, I'm pretty surprised I never became a musician, as a matter of fact, as much as my siblings also like to rock out, I'm surprised one us didn't become a rocker. Well, professional rocker, because we all rock pretty hard to music whenever it's on. :)
But with my iPod on shuffle, I really have the opportunity to hear all kinds of music throughout the day. Like right now, Red Hot Chili Peppers "love roller coaster" is playing and I can't tell you the last time I listened to this song! Always a thrill for the next song!
So, keep the music loud fellas!!

Happy Mother's Day

Yesterday was my second mother's day! And it was a very special one! When I walked up the stairs from my shower a little sleepy baby and his daddy were waiting for me to give me my gift! Jackson, in his knowing way, got me a bird feeder! He is such a sweet boy! :) I haven't decided on where I want to hang it, but it is really nice and I'm excited to enjoy the 34234809283094 birds that fly around our yard already. I know another little being that will love the bird feeder and her name is Mailey! Our springer spaniel, a bird dog. :)
But thank you Matthew for a wonderful mother's day full of all my favorite things, sleepy babies, food, and sleep. :)

The Sun Is Shining

But it's not feeling too happy. Ever since dad has been gone, I feel like there's a lot missing. I don't know if it's just because he's gone or if it's the thought of him being gone?? I honestly just feel like he's going to show up, or call, or write a note. I'm not sure how to get through all of this. And I can't say that Dad and I had a close relationship to where we called everyday or carried on long detailed conversations whenever we did spend time together, but he's still my dad and there's still something just gone from my life. It's an awful feeling to have someone just ripped from you. Death is never easy but at least whenever someone falls sick or hurt, you can prepare yourself and say your goodbyes and I love yous. We had no idea. God just decided that was the time for dad and didn't take the rest of us in to consideration. Growing up in the church you're taught to not "question" why God does the things that He does... I mean, we were always taught to question the meaning or the definition of things, but not really ever question the "why the heck?". But at this point, I can honestly say I can't stop questioning... I try and try to just tell myself I'll never know WHY but I can't. I have to keep questioning and questioning this path and why God put us on it. I think me not going through this like I need to is affecting my relationship with everyone else in my life. I am hoping to see the "window" that will shed some light open.